I have no idea what to title this. In fact, I’m not even sure of what to write. It’s been over a year since I posted on here and I’ve flooded my Instagram with my cats. I just don’t know what to write and that is my problem.
How can I call myself a writer? I’m having trouble writing this post for crying out loud. I have no excuses. Nothing. I’ve tried writing little snippets and just nothing. I can’t even sit down and read a book without getting bored with it. I’m just sorta lost and floating along. I’m no longer coloring outside the lines. I’ve become bland.
Why am I suddenly so bland? I have no idea. Even vanilla ice cream is more exciting than me. I’m struggling and I don’t know why. Why am I struggling? Why?
I started writing this in 2020. Back when the world was falling apart. I left my job at big box retail in September 2021. Since then I have slowly began to feel like myself again. Things have been changing. I’m currently working on a new story. Sadly, for those that are waiting for the next installment of the Millersburg Shifters or Trinity Mates you are going to have to wait a bit longer.
I am working on an experimental piece (for me) to dip my toe back into writing. I’m taking it slow and steady that way I don’t overwhelm myself. I am deeply sorry for just disappearing. Life has been very hectic.
In 2019, I left my job at Walmart due to increasing medical issues and them being unwilling to work with me. I started working for their competitor, Kroger. We were driving an hour one way just to get to work. Plus, since it was a new job I didn’t have a steady schedule. It was insane. I was slowly finding time to get writing back into my day when the 2019 holidays hit and then shortly after that the 2020 lockdowns began.
During this time, my fiancĂ© (husband now) and I bought a house. We moved two days before the lockdown began. I had transferred to a new store. It was five minutes from home. I thought it was going to be a great change. But as we all know 2020 didn’t get any better and 2021 didn’t start out on the best foot.
I was trying to plan our wedding during 2021 and we kept losing associates at my store. I was spending more and more time at work. If you have ever planned a wedding, you know it takes time. I was slowly losing what time I had. I wasn’t eating. I was barely sleeping.
We got married in July and went on our honeymoon. It was so bad that I told my work that if they needed help to call me and I would try to walk them through whatever they needed help with. Surprisingly, no one called. But when I got back to work we had even less associates then when I left. So then the cycle began again.
I was jumping between two/three departments. I wasn’t eating and was barely sleeping. It got to the point that my medication wasn’t helping and when I went to the doctor they found out that I had a severe vitamin D deficiency. It was bad enough that I had to take prescription vitamin D.
I kept working, trying to make it, until one day I just couldn’t do it anymore. I was exhausted. I constantly felt sick and dizzy. It got to the point that I either quit or keep working and pass out on the floor. I wasn’t chancing my health anymore. I had done that at Walmart and had nearly lost that game. I wasn’t going to do it again.
I have been sleeping A LOT. I’ve been eating peanut butter. My depression has been like a rollercoaster but I’m starting to feel like myself again. Last night I took a shower and inspiration struck. I picked up a pen and started jotting down my ideas and little scenarios. It felt so good to write again. Hence why I’m blogging. I’m going to start making my dreams a priority instead of putting them on the back burner. Or at least I’m going to try.
I want to finish fleshing out all the stories I have for Millersburg Shifters and Trinity Mates. I have so many FILES of other stories that I want to write. But since this is just the beginning I’m starting slow and doing my experimental work. Once I’m farther along into my new work then I will start telling all of you about it. Just know that it’s not like my other works and that it will most likely not be under my Alice Frost pen name.
Now for another quick question. How do all of you feel about Kindle Vella? I’m curious but I really don’t want to use it if it’s Amazon’s version of Wattpad. I’m not saying Wattpad is bad. I tried it and found that it just wasn’t for me. I asked this question over on Twitter. If you could tell me your opinion on it that would be wonderful.
Thank you!
Lots of love,
Alice Frost